When I was younger, because so much of my play was initially in arenas other then the purely physical (such as on-line, on the phone, or in written letters) I was sometimes asked by those who had not met me in real life a question I find quite amusing.
Can I really do the things I describe? Can I really make you feel the things I write about?
Can I make your pulse race, your skin flush, your insides tighten, your breathing deeper?
The easy answer is the simplest. Yes.
I’m doing it right now, am I not?
Still, this doesn’t really answer the heart of the question. Are my fingers skilled at eliciting shivers? Are my hands strong enough to hold you down? Can I fulfill the promise my words hold?
This isn’t really about how close my words are to actual activity. Words promise: Kisses, yes. Bites, yes. Hands tightening, yes. Roses are nice, leather is as well. Everything has a place. Words make promises that hands and fingers fulfill.
With the right words before hand, the proper tension, I barely have to touch you to push you under: the softest brush of my fingers along the back of your neck – feeling my breath tickle your ear – my hands drawing you back into my reach.
But I don’t need words to do this. A look can do it. A warm presence against your back can do it. Parting lips that take in moist heat the inherent intimacy of a shared kiss can do it.
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My past has definately shaped the way I play. Sometimes I frame scenes in my head like a story. I ask questions. I won’t accept just their body for those moments that they are in my grasp – I want everything. I want their secrets. I want their indecision. I want the dirty little girl inside that society keeps so well hidden.
I pay attention to language: verbal, physical, and the even more elusive sexual dialect that goes beyond tangile boundaries. I make my partners tell me what they want. I tell them how wet I am going to make them. I whisper what I am going to do with them before I do it.
The simple answer is yes, I can back up my words. The longer answer…well, the longer answer is best demonstrated…
…in person.