
I was cleansed
in fountains birthed
by naked hungers
buried in a darker thirst
and I’m left to wonder
after how hard
I’ve had to pray,
were I to kiss you
would you taste like yesterday?
I was cleansed
in fountains birthed
by naked hungers
buried in a darker thirst
and I’m left to wonder
after how hard
I’ve had to pray,
were I to kiss you
would you taste like yesterday?
It is a thin line, the distance between fear and desire, between want and need, between hope that it is real and despair that it is too much so.
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Laura: *shivers* And if I tried to stop you? Put my hands on yours?
D’jaevle: Without speaking? Just hands on mine? I’d pause…for a moment. And then continue, with your hands on mine, and now you’d be doing it with me.
Laura: …and if I asked you? to please stop?
D’jaevle: While you were trembling in my hands?
D’jaevle: I’d speak softly and tell you that you’d need to do more than that. That I was going to take it. That I could feel you wet already.
Laura: *blushes* And if I begged you? And told you I was afraid?
D’jaevle: Begged me to stop?
Laura: *nods*
D’jaevle: I’d take your hand and slide it down the front of your panties, guided by my own. Curl your fingers against the heat, let you feel how hot it felt.
Laura: *whimpers*
It wasn’t subtle, the change, and it could be felt.
It was primal, a shifting of energy that imbued each movement with intent. Poised over the table, she slid lower, back arching as she leaned across the top with her hands flat on the warm wood. She was unafraid. It was in her eyes, unwavering as they watched. She had poured herself into feline form, limber and vibrant. She was on the edge and she liked it.
When I saw it begin ebb in her eyes, I wanted to reawaken it by burying my hand in the back of her hair and pulling her body taunt. Let the sharp suddenness ground her, the uncompromising nature of my grip drive the animal back into the light. I wanted to make it hungry.
I wanted to cage her and watch her claw her way out. Put her into heat and let own needs burn through her inhibitions. I wanted the fire in her blood to leave her cleansed of everything but the purity of self. And when the demanding hold of my hands on her hips is enough to make her slip lose from the tight moorings of time and place, when she presses back against me instinctively –
Then, then I will know.
I can taste the words left silent upon your lips.
the forgiveness you would beg with carefully practiced indifference
while the taste of your fragility
is sweet on my tongue
knowing any fault I find
is mine
for seeing with imperfect eyes
only makes it sweeter
Say it.
Say you need more.
Say you want it.
You hold onto the diving board while the water holds onto you. The feel of a body behind you, of hands tracing the lines of your suit, a finger sliding just under the edge of fabric, a tease, a tease that moves along the inside of your thigh. Soft breath on wet skin, moist neck. Lips find the curve of your neck, tongue following the rivulets of water drawing lines across your skin; a breath, teeth grazing your ear, the cool night draws shivers from skin too long exposed to the air and already blessed with goosebumps.
Dangerous, this, the rubbing of bodies as if trying to find friction, heat. Hands on your stomach as you press closer to the body along your back, the arms around you. Fingers move to arms, tease the straps, and you have to wonder how easily they slip off. Quite easily it turns out, as hands draw straps over shoulders, trace curves beneath the water to leave you bare.
For moments it is just the sound of treading water behind you, and then hands – hands not shy, nor hesitant – hands sure and strong that move up along your calves, the back of your legs, thighs, ass, hips. There is nothing between these hands and your wet skin, a fact taken full advantage of as fingers explore each curve, each crevice along the way to your waist, over your breasts, palms pressed in tightly to capture nipples, rub, roll, press, slowly – so slowly, letting the water support you as they find out just how sensitive the hardening tips are; fingers part, drawing outward and then releasing, again, and again, then lightly dancing lower over your naked stomach to where it meets the water.
You feel the body behind you slip under the water only to resurface in front of you. Hands move up under your legs, hook your knees over shoulders, folding you at the middle.
You hold onto the board tightly, close your eyes for just a moment to feel the difference between warm lips and cool skin as lips move up your thigh, small hungry kisses tasting the water from your skin. It does not take long until they find the smooth skin further in.
So close – you can feel his breathing, slightly faster, against you; kisses turn to nibbles, teeth grazing naked skin as they tease, nuzzling, holding you suspended there. Still, there is only so long before your arms tire, and he pauses in the game being played to breath you in before slipping out from between your legs.
Now it is your turn to sink beneath the water.
Can you quantify a person? Can you reduce them to a base number? Are we more than our IQ, height, weight and salary?
Does the number of people you’ve slept with reveal something meaningful? Should we calculate our genetic disposition for getting cancer and live our lives accordingly? Am I a poor citizen if my gas mileage is well below the national average? Does the length of my hair tell you how well I do my job? If sleeping with a married person is immoral, does sleeping with two make you twice as bad? What about three?
Are there diminishing returns on guilt?
Do we choose our friends to be funny? Which is better – base humor, sarcasm, sweet laughter or devastating ridicule?
What of intelligence? Is clever better than smart? Intuitive better than astute?
Am I a better blogger if I write three times a week instead of two?
Is the worth of a person counted in the number of friends they have? Does the quality of friendship affect this number?
Does fucking around with more people increase your chance for satiation or simply make you more hungry?
Sometimes people just don’t add up.
Sometimes we’re more than the sum of our parts.
And sometimes it is just better not to count.
Holly pages: “it gives me a rush to flash you while someone else is here.”
D’jaevle smiles. “You didn’t answer my question.”
Holly pages: “yes, i’m very wet.”
D’jaevle pages: “Remove your shirt.”
Holly pages: “can i get up from my desk to do it?”
D’jaevle pages: “Yes.”
Holly pages: “you can see my nipples through this bra.”
D’jaevle pages: “I want you to push your chair back three feet and slip your bra up to show your breasts.”
Holly whimpers.
D’jaevle pages: “Now.”
Holly pages: “would you like anything else?”
D’jaevle pages: “I want you to undo your jeans.”
Holly smiles. they’re black knit slacks, no undoing to them ;)
D’jaevle smiles. “Then show me your panties.”
Holly pages: “front or back?”
D’jaevle pages: “Front.”
Holly pages: “i dont think i can.”
D’jaevle waits.
Holly pages: “they’re very plain.”
D’jaevle “Say it. Tell me what you are.””
Holly pages: “i am your fucktoy.”
D’jaevle pages: “How did it make you feel to slip your pants down for me?”
Holly pages: “so hot.”
D’jaevle pages: “How hot?”
Holly pages: “i can feel my wool sweater grazing across my nipples.”
Holly pages: “i’m imagining it’s your teeth.”
D’jaevle pages: “Find out how wet you are.”
Holly pages: “very.”
D’jaevle pages: “How badly do you want to cum?”
Holly pages: “very, very bad. i want to feel your cock filling me even more.”
Holly pages: “my whole body is tense.”
D’jaevle pages: “I want you to run your fingers over your clit, once, hard.”
Holly pages: “i want more.”
D’jaevle pages: “How much?”
Holly pages: “if only i knew how much longer she would be..”
Holly pages: “i want to hear you.”
Holly pages: “i want you to hear me.”
Holly pages: “i would have to be so quiet.”
D’jaevle pages: “Now, then. Do you understand?”
Holly pages: “yes.”
Holly pages: “yes, please.”
Holly pages: “but you have to let me leave the office”
Holly pages: “i’m not doing it in here.”
D’jaevle pages: “Stay in the seat.”
Holly pages: “no, i won’t answer.”
Holly pages: “i absolutely cannot.”
D’jaevle waits.
Holly pages: “i wouldn’t be able to say a word to you!”
D’jaevle pages: “I’m going to make you be quiet.”
D’jaevle pages: “And do as I say. Exactly. Do you understand?”
Holly pages: “yes.”
D’jaevle pages: “Answer. Do you understand?”
Holly pages: “yes!”
D’jaevle pages: “Ask me to call now.”
Holly pages: “please call now. hurry.”
I parted some slender thighs
and fasted on sleepy mouths
that tasted of winter delight cresting in slighted words
I buried in the moment, the hills, the delves that twisted and quickened in the wrist like tender burns
washed, alight, with tinder box candles trailing smoky skeins tracing the silence of words and eyes and lies that fail to crush
that winter kiss
that winter kiss and lips I once tasted
were only to be shared like some
Secret.
no, no secret there but perhaps between lips there is a secret
in her eyes
and her eyes
and somehow I want to see.
those parted thighs, those parted skies of heaven
I stood behind her, draping the scarf over her head so that it settled against her throat. One hand gripped the ends of the scarf and the other pressed firmly on her back, forcing her down over the leather ottoman.
Resting a knee against her ass, I wound the scarf about her wrists and then tied the ends off. I tested the tension of the velvet fabric to make sure it was tight and then slid two fingers between the scarf and her neck to make sure she could still breath.
She could. But not easily. And the more she shifted, the harder it became.
I unsnapped the bra and drew the back of her black panties over her hips to the top of her thighs.
Now, she was ready.