There is a moment that I believe most of us share. A moment where we see someone, reflect on their appearance or behavior, and think, ‘I’ll never let myself look like that,’ or ‘I could never let myself do that.’.
Life has a way of mocking that kind of thinking. Inevitably, we end up acting just like that. Looking just like that.
I’m a strong individual (some might simply call me stubborn). I consider myself unique (don’t we all), but I’ve come to understand that placing myself on a particular path will undeniably lead to results similar to those experienced by everyone else who has walked the same path. I’ve always assumed that my nature will protect me from the changes inherent in certain lifestyles. And, to an extent, it has and will.
But it won’t eliminate the changes, merely mitigate them.
Which means, when I consider my life and the choices ahead of me, I need to consider the frank reality of what changes will accompany each path – and decide if the person I am at the end of that road is one I want to be.
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Like last year, it is time for me to take a month off and give myself enough space to decide where I want to go next with this small dark corner of my world. Should I continue experimenting with audio posts? Should I try my hand at longer stories? Should I keep my posting schedule, or pull back? Stay with the topics I feel comfortable with, or expand into other areas? And, of course, just how much longer do I want to keep writing here?
I invite you to send me your thoughts and questions. If there is anything you are curious about, ask. If there is something in particular that you’ve enjoyed, now is the time to tell me. Place a comment here and I promise to answer each one when I return in May.
Silently I’ve been following along your path behind you. Admiring the words you drop and scatter on the forest floor like sparkling jewels. It is not often that we find such creative, emotional writing that originates with one such as yourself. Personally, I think it would be a shame to see it stop or slow to a mere trickle. If that’s the path that you choose, one that we can’t follow, I thank you for what you have given us.
D’Jaevle…..well, the obvious first response is you can’t possibly quit. Your female fan base would be in a tizzy. As for where I’d like to see you go, it struck me that I, personally, know very little about you except what I glean from your writing. I love your poetry – it is matchless. And I love the D/s snippets from your life. But, I would like to read soul-bearing prose. Where are you from? What do you do with your time? What makes you take notice? Who IS D’Jaevle? Enjoy your time away….blogs can sometimes take on a life of their own.
Please, please, please, don’t stop posting. Please please please, more audio posts!
Have a lovely and very merry month of May.
Your posts at times have put words to thoughts in my head….
Your “voice” in audio and words are held in regard.
Simply….Thank you.
So many Questions…. and so many possible answers.
Somehow I’ve no doubt you’ll come back in some form , to write again.
Maybe in some other way…only you will know that.
You write too well and enjoy it equally to stop altogether.
And we would miss your words..very much.
You leave me breathless at the thought of you going away.
You’ve made me come out of hiding to beg you….
Please, don’t leave me now…..
what a shame it would be for you to transform now. may i suggest shapeshifting…it gives an option to return to what is comfortable.
i understand your search.
Since Ive just become a fan of D’jaevle’s on Monday July 28, 2008, Im reading all the posts from March 2005 up to and including June 2008.
When I click on the button to start the audio..nothing…just the word buffering….
But I do have a suggestion:
1. Why not put audio musings in CD format.
2. Write a book on your views of D/s, etc.
I would certaintly purchase the 2 items.