I don’t want to cut you
but I do want to see
what is inside of you
and cutting may be the only way.
—
It is the difference between asking a wolf to play.
And inviting the devil to.
A wolf wants to see you whimper.
The devil wants to see you cry.
A wolf will devour you. Sink teeth into your neck and claim you.
The devil will take you apart so thoroughly you will have nothing to hide behind but the weight of his hands.
A wolf wants to taste the heat between your thighs.
The devil wants to taste the tears on your cheeks.
When I say the devil wants to play.
This is what I mean.
I want to use without consideration.
Inflict pain without compassion.
I want abasement without reservation.
I want you so low to the ground that when my fingers tangle in your hair to lift your head, it is so you can breath.
I will nurse your injuries.
I will let you curl at my feet with my hand at the nape of your neck.
And then I will start again.