entre vous

I think…to answer your first question, I have to answer your last.

It's not whether these attributes bring me happiness. They bring with them moments of sinful decadence, joy, sorrow, pain, laughter. They are the same attributes that linked us together at the beginning, and have threaded through our relationship ever since; in our time together, your own values of loyalty and innocence have become principles just as essential. The pain is where these threads conflict.

For me, it has always been about balancing my hungers (and I use hunger to describe both the desires I've cultivated since I was fourteen and the manner in which I remind myself I'm alive) against the stability and comfort of friends who both love and have faith in me.

You embody both, to me.

I manage my hunger through many means other then sexual predation. My motorcycle. Trips to shows, to the mountains. Sky diving. Hand gliding. Writing.

But they complement my hunger, not satiate it.

By nature, the greater the risk and danger in an act, the sharper it is felt. And even if the conscious mind doesn't acknowledge it, you can't convince wolf otherwise.

6 thoughts on “entre vous”

  1. Do you ever think it’s beyond hope to have both? I’m beginning to feel that way myself. Or maybe the hunger changes each time it gets a taste of satisfaction?

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